Les nouveaux événements dans la vie de Alex.

(I have no idea whether that title is even remotely right am I supposed to care about this but yeah this is an update post after my shoooooort *cough* month-long *cough* absence… come on, it’s not like no one else takes a hiatus once in a while, shut up and judge me)
It’s the Easter holidays right now where I’m from (yeah we apparently have different holidays to the rest of the UK, like whose amazing idea was that, HMMM?) so I’m still off school for another week-SWEAR TO GOD, WORDPRESS ON TABLET IS THE MOST GODDAMN PISSTAKING THING EVER TO GRACE THE EARTH-. I’m visiting my grandparents from Tuesday to Thursday this week in the south so chocolate, coffee cake (best thing ever) aaaand a load of posh accents ^-^ *casually offends like, a third of the British population*. So that means no wifi unless casually walking through Chichester where random wifi signals decide to throw themselves at me. Also, Chichester means Jack Wills. Jack Wills means basically looking at all the clothes that I can’t afford and then wallowing in my sadness as I eat overly expensive cupcakes for the sake of it.


…That means no posts or replies hahaha like I post anyway for a few days buuuut I’m sure you will all survive without me.

Sooooo, the happenings.

Only 18 days until I see my babies, Panic!, in Manchester, which I’m incredibly excited about because YES. This being the second time of seeing them, I think I’m possibly even more excited as I know how amazing it’ll be aaaaand I know how excited it’s making two of my besties as this is their first time a) seeing Panic! and b) going to a gig like this. Another of our… Well… I’m not going to refer to him as a friend because he was pretty much 50% to blame for a fall out that pretty much split our group into thirds… But anyway he (let’s call him N) decided to invite himself which pissed us off to no extent. However, this does mean that if he decides to be a twat again, as he’s relying on the one person he’s been the worst to for transport, we can just casually drop it that he’ll have to find his own way to Manchester. Hah.


Also, I got tickets to see Tonight Alive at the end of November which will be amaaaazing ^-^ Plus tickets are pretty cheap (£13.75) sooooo why not?

Moving on, it’s almost 5 months with Skate now. He’s trying to get me into skateboarding so I now have one of his old decks propped up against my radiator. It is a loooot harder than you think, but it is fun so we’ll see how it goes.

Last night I went to a funfair for like, the first time possibly in my life? It was on my bucket list so myself, my sister (C), my friend (L) and her sister, also friends with my sister (M) went to the local Easter fair which, I believe, happens every year round here.

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There was this small caterpillar rollercoaster (exactly the same as the one in Twinlakes if anyone from the UK has ever been) so, naturally! my sister, who is now 18, and I sat at the back like mature teenagers and definitely did not scream when it dropped like, a metre don’t judge me, okay, I wasn’t expecting it. There was one of the sky flyer things, the one that has the swings on the outside and then it goes up and spins around. It was pretty high so you could see the sunset and it was pretty beautiful. Then we ate candy floss amongst all the lights in the dark and it was just a really nice night, almost like living my childhood now as I never really lived it when I should have done.

Speaking of childhood, I was in WH Smiths the other day and came across a shelf of books from a series called ‘Magic Kitten’ by Sue Bentley. You may have heard of them or seen them around, especially if you live in the UK. They look like this:

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These were like, my favourite books from when I was about 6-7 years old and so, in 2007, I wrote to the author and we ended up writing to each other until late 2011. That’s pretty cool, come to think of it, but the coolest thing is, in 2009, she actually based the main character in one of the Magic Pony books (adventurous titles, I know), on me so it’s no coincidence that the girl in Showjumping Dreams is called Alexandra. I just remembered that the other day when I saw it on the shelf. I also got one of the Magic Puppy books before it was published, being the special kid I was.

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So, there’s a piece of nostalgia for you. But I’m going to end this now as I can see you getting excruciatingly bored, plus I have an awards post to write see, Mia, I did post… Eventually so adios, cuties, until next time. Xx

I am human and I will let you down.

Here, for those of you in the Supernatural fandom, have a shit-tonne of feels. I found this song through an Instagram post a short while ago and it was the shot of Jared holding the card saying, ‘I am human, I am human, I am human and I will let you down.’ This is not okay. Not. Okay.

Anyway, I found the song just today however the picture itself hadn’t left my mind since the first time I saw it. And maybe that’s because it holds so much truth. Another song, Far From Never by The Pretty Reckless, includes the line, ‘no one will never let you down’ which I have begun to be accustomed to saying in the recent months since I heard that song for the first time also.

With risk of seeming incredibly pessimistic, when someone tells you that they’re never going to let you down, no matter how genuine they are or how much they mean it, they will.

It may well just be something incredibly small, but all the same, it hurts.

But this is human nature, we simply cannot build relationships with other people without something sometimes getting in the way, that’s just how it is.

Also, I’m not saying that as soon as someone lets you down, that’ll be the end of it, because for the majority of the time, it won’t be, and I firmly believe that people deserve second chances, sometimes third chances, but it’s when you find yourself continuously giving someone more chances that it becomes a problem.

Anyway, that kind of swerved a little away from the original thought (and I apologise for the fact that this is incredibly poorly written, I may well rewrite this sometime).

I don’t tell people that I’ll never let them down any more. It’s not true.

And when, during a fall out or argument or whatever you so wish to imagine, they tell me that I told them that I’d never let them down, I know that I said exactly the opposite.

xx

(A more light-hearted post will be up soon, don’t worry ^-^)

Coming up in 2014

You will know by now that I am not good at all at keeping up with blog posts. There’ll be weeks where I’ll post almost every day, and there’ll be months where I won’t post at all. I think this is partly due to, aside from the ever-increasing pile of school work, the fact that almost all my ideas require time and energy, two things that I do not usually possess (currently I use all my remaining energy crying over Supernatural). Moreover, the only time I felt I could post anything worth reading was when something had happened in my life, which isn’t very often, so you were left with goddamn awful posts about nothing.

So, now, in the event that I have nothing to write about, I have created a list of generic ideas to complete as and when.

  • The ‘Letters To’ series ~ So this will basically be a series of letters to someone, maybe a specific person, maybe to a group of people, saying the things that I’d like to say but probably won’t. It could be just an open letter to anyone in a similar situation, for example, however it could be addressed to a friend of mine, or even yourself.
  • Challenges ~ You know the ones. The challenges that no one keeps up, ever. But I shall try my best.
  • Tags ~ Tags are fun, and easy, so why not? If you guys find any interesting ones, please tell me because I have no inspiration. As per usual.
  • A fuck tonne of feels posts ~ I have so many of these in my drafts and I have a feeling some of you could relate to them.
  • Reviews ~ Films, books, music.
  • A continuation of the ‘Reasons to carry on’ series ~ My aim is to get at least a couple of hundred to remind anyone going through a hard time why they should carry on.
  • Tutorials ~ …Craft things? Daily routines? Eyeliner?
  • Videos ~ Ooooh, videos. Not entirely sure what of, but there we go.
  • Novel ~ I can try and write a novel and post my progress. Not sure how that would work out. Which leads me on to:
  • A modern fairy tale series ~ Considering traditional fairy tales are bullshit, I thought I’d rewrite some. Why does the Princess always have to be saved by the Prince? And why does it always have to be a Prince and a Princess? Why not two princesses or two princes? ACCEPTANCE.

And that is just a small sample of ideas. You can remind me if I seem to have disappeared for a while.

Next post will be soon as it’s midday and I should probably get up.

xx