Well, here we are in 2013. The start of a brand new year. Ed Sheeran sang me into the new year with Firefly and Cold Coffee. (Yes, I was sitting alone listening to Ed Sheeran’s albums on repeat…)
New years resolutions? Well for 2012, I had said:
‘Have more fun – know that the past is gone and is just there to learn from.‘
Well, I think I did that. I definitely had a lot of fun. As for this year? I don’t know. I don’t really set New Year’s resolutions because I usually forget about them after January. I’m going to try and keep them this year though so here are a few:
Try and have a healthier diet. – I admit, I don’t eat very healthily. I need to start doing that.
Go to bed earlier. – I know, this is a really boring resolution, but I go to bed really late… and it’s not exactly doing me any good…
Don’t worry so much – Like I’ve said before, I think too much and this results in me worrying too much. I need to stop that.
Have more fun, stop being so reserved! – I have improved this over 2012 but I want to continue!
Try not to get pissed off so easily. – If you have read my previous post, you’ll get why I’ve put this!
So there are some resolutions… I don’t know whether I’ll keep them or not, but I will try! I will also try to post something every day!
I have a feeling 2013 is going to be good, and I hope it’s awesome for everyone! So have an amazing new year’s day and I post later!
My quote for the year:
So let’s freefall… and see where we land.
– Ed Sheeran, Where We Land
Long story short, I get pissed off. A lot. Very quickly and very easily. And by almost anything.
My mood can change in a second. I can be happy, bubbly and cheerful and then something would happen and BAM. I’m now transformed into a moody bitch.
It’s not something I’m proud of and I’m constantly being told that I need to control my temper, I need to calm down, I need to stop getting wound up so easily… etc etc etc. I realise this and I try. I really do, but nothing works. I guess I’ll grow out of it, but for now, I just have to try to keep calm.
…Well that would be a hell of a lot easier of I didn’t have people moaning at me all the time, or being insensitive little twats.
A lot of the time, I’d come home from school, all happy, and then someone totally ruins everything by yelling at me. Yay. This happens a lot.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my family. But over the past year, my parents have become further and further away… Mum doesn’t tell us anything (so how are we, my sister and I, supposed to feel comfortable talking to her about stuff) like she didn’t tell us that one of my grandparents had cancer, that my dad was on anti-depressants because a situation at his work was so bad, etc etc. Those are just some of the things she has kept from us. We found out by accident… overhearing phone conversations, seeing open emails. Another thing that gets me seriously pissed off is that she tells her friends everything about us. Stuff they shouldn’t know; personal things. Thanks mother. Also, shouldn’t mothers be supportive? Shouldn’t they be encouraging and enthusiastic? Ha. Mines not. She is constantly being negative and this affects my sister (who is a few years older than me and doing her A-Levels) more than me. Plus, she is hardly understanding. We can’t tell her anything. In a way, this has brought my sister and I closer together because she is the one I talk to if I need help.
Then comes my ‘friends’. In fact, I’m not even going to start on that.
So this year, I’m going to try and not get so annoyed at everything and hopefully that will make me a nicer person.
Lastly, thanks so much for all the support you guys gave on my previous post and also thanks for telling me about your own experiences (thanks you two). I’ll be posting again today, but I thought I should finish this post as it has been sitting as a draft for days. I have been at my grandparents the past few days without wifi so that’s why I haven’t been posting.
But for now, have an amazing new year everyone!