Guitars and Apologies

1. I’m sorry. For not posting recently. And for eating all the ice cream. I swear to God, if I get any more homework I am going to cry. I have about eight big pieces at a time and it is absolutely ridiculous and stupid and I hate life.

2. I promise that I have so many ideas for posts, I just haven’t had the time or energy to be able to do them. If you don’t believe me, here’s one page of my ideas.

These will get done... Eventually.

These will get done… Eventually.

3. This is going to be really short because all my literary ability has been drained.

4. I really need to stop eating so much crap.

5. I love my English teacher. She gave me books.

6. I’m sick of people not caring.

7. My hair’s purple again.

8. My eyeliner somehow manages to survive a full-on hair wash, but smudges after an hour at school.

9. I really want cake.

10. And band merch.

11. I’m going to cover one of my walls in band posters.

12. I hate people.

13. I don’t think my friends could get any more annoying.

14. I really want coffee.

15. Assemblies are shit.

16. I now have ‘wanking is fun’ on my rubber.

17. I’m going to Normandy (France) in June.

18. I have to find my former French teacher on Monday, the really bitchy one who I never want to see again, ever, because I have to see if she still has my coursework. I need it. I’m not doing it again.

19. David Cameron, I am not going to school from 9-5. No fucking way.

20. I want to kill everyone.

21. I like my fat media teacher. He let me listen to my iPod in class. I had to drown out the noise of the Oranges – the group of infuriatingly loud girls who embrace the whole fakery every single day: tan, lashes, extensions, nails, tons and tons of hot pink lipstick.

22. I’m really hungry right now.

23. It’s cold. Why is it cold?

24. Anyone else from England have the day off on October 1st for the strikes?

25. Rings are my new obsession.

26. I have an arrogant little twat sitting in front of me in French. He went to my primary and my high school so we’re well-acquainted however I hadn’t been in any of his lessons for three years so I’d forgotten how much of a dick he is. I’m better at French than he is, anyway.

27. He’s going to Normandy as well.

28. Apparently it’s wrong to write notes in capitals.

29. Bad Education and Waterloo Road are back. *cries tears of joy* Oh oh oh, and Some Girls is also coming back *cheers*

30. I believe the ice has been broken between said Bastard and I. (Flirt, that is.) Hmph.

31. I have so many books to read.

just a few of them

just a few of them

32. Case studies suck.

33. I have to make up a rap for geography about life in the Kibera Slum. I can’t rap. Or write a rap. I can eat a wrap. Can I just bring in a wrap?

34. Black has been my official nail polish colour for the past couple of weeks. Mother is thinking I’m turning into a goth. Rebel.

35. Look at how utterly riveting our science experiments are at school.

Boiling water. How spectacular.

Boiling water. How spectacular.

36. If you want to contact me, you can drop me a message in the ‘SAY HELLO’ section, because I’m nice. :3

37. EIGHTEEN DAYS TIL PANIC!’s NEW ALBUM OMG

38. If Brendon crowd surfs at the show… I… I might be able to touch his hair holy shit please God

39. The chips my college do are really nice.

40. I really want a new guitar.

For now, my friends, I say good night.

xx

Ghost town?

Side note: If you don’t like the idea of the paranormal, don’t read this post. Or simply skip to the bottom half of the post which I have started in bold as this contains no creepy stories, just a random thought I had. Hope you enjoy.

A thought popped into my head this morning as I walked by the river in Richmond today. At first it was fleeting, but then I began to really think about it. Firstly I must say that I know this is illogical, unrealistic and totally untrue. It was just a thought that makes you think ‘what if?‘ because what’a the point of having an imagination if you cannot consider these impossible things?

So this post, as you can guess from the title, is based around the mysteries of the paranormal, you know, ghosts and things.

I don’t know whether you believe in ghosts and to be truthful, I’m not sure whether I do either. There are so many stories and tales about ghosts being around us, living around us, along side us: haunted houses, the ghosts of long-dead queens (one of which supposedly haunts Hampton Court and runs down the halls screaming as she apparently did before her execution during the rule of Henry 8th) and experiences of the general public. For example my neighbour has a friend whose daughter is friends with a girl living a road away from our house. That’s irrelevant but anyway. These two girls, teenagers, we alone in this friend’s house, watching TV when suddenly there was an incredibly loud noise, described as, I quote, ‘like a washing machine had dropped from the ceiling into the floor‘, and not even half a second later, they were physically thrown back off the sofa onto the back wall by a humongous, incredibly forceful gust of wind. They now won’t be alone on the house by themselves, they’re too scared. In addition, the people who live there have also said that you can often hear footsteps running down the stairs. Moreover, a visitor to the house saw a little girl playing in their back garden, dressed in old, traditional clothes worn in the Victorian era, but when asked who she was, the family were shocked as there was no possibility of a young girl getting into their garden… And when they turned round again, she was gone.

OKAY GUYS, if you’ve been skipping the first half, you can read from now on.

So, we’re constantly told about these things and some believe them, some don’t. But a thought occurred to me.

What if we’re the ghosts?

Yes, I know, this totally impossible and a crazy idea… But what if?

What is we were reborn as ghosts, living in a world of the dead, oblivious to the fact that we are the dead, not the living? What if the living are here right now, right next to us, blissfully unaware that we are here? Who says the after life can’t be like this one? Why shouldn’t ghosts listen to music and go to concerts and have an education and live a new life until they are old? Or what if this world, the world of the dead, is so totally different to that of the living? What if the living world is one that is far more advanced? Or maybe it is stuck in the Victorian era? (I’m not sure whether people who aren’t English will know about these different eras considering it is not relevant to other countries, and if you don’t, let’s just say it was a long time ago.) So what if we are experiencing this life in acceptance that this is how the world is because we don’t know any different? Maybe we are the ghosts that the living will experience and be afraid of and maybe the spirits we may experience are other dead, living in a parallel world? What if this world is parallel to thousands of others, each in certain generations… Maybe ghosts can die. What if this is our afterlife? What if this is Heaven or Hell? What if this is the ‘Inbetween’? Yes, I did just make that up. The reason I called it the ‘Inbetween’ was because there is so much happiness that it surely cannot be Hell however there is so much pain and suffering that it could not possibly be Heaven.

I’m not religious, so I don’t particularly believe in Heaven and Hell but I do like to think there is an afterlife. I was brought up by a Christian mother so some things kind of stuck with me. And it just made me think.
What if?
I’d love to know what you think about the paranormal and afterlifes, etc. Maybe we all died and are here in preparation for the regeneration into the world of Sexy that George and I discussed. …Only he and those who have read our extremely long comment thread will understand.

Anyway, let me know your views in the comments, I really enjoy discussing these things!

Xx

P.s. I’m writing this in the car on the way back from London so that is why ou have a random post published in an illogical order without the 30 Day Challenge or any of the others I said I’d so. I am doing to do them, I promise, but when this is published, you will probably not get another one for the night. Enjoy your day 🙂

30 Day Challenge – Day 12

Yeah, yeah, I know I didn’t publish the post I said I was going to do last night, stop complaining , I was tired, okay? And I doubt I’m going to publish it tonight either as I have to get up early tomorrow (9am, seriously, how am I going to find the strength to get up at that unearthly time?!) The bad thing is, I’m actually being serious… Yeah, so anyway, here’s Day 12.

Day 12 – things you want to say to an ex.

HAHAHAHAHA well since I don’t have an ex, I’ll just note down a few possibilities for the future ahahaha nope, you’re going to be alone forever

a) Hey, how are you? I’m sorry, okay. Please don’t be an asshole.

b) I fucking hate you, you bastard.

c) LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE

d) Your new girlfriend is a bitch.

e) See, this is what you’re missing. *sticks finger up*

f) Oh, we’re good? I’m glad. How are you?

g) Yeah um, see ya.

h) My ass is way better than hers.

i) I still love you, please come back.

j) I still love you, but you were a prick, so piss off.

k) What the actual hell are you wearing?

l) Do you like pizza? I like pizza.

m) I wrote a song about you. Explaining what a shit boyfriend you were.

n) So now I have to see you every day? Well this is going to be fun.

o) I’m worth so much more than you.

p) We can get back together, let’s try again.

q) You really shouldn’t use that language, young man.

r) I can play guitar better than you.

s) I never liked your music anyway.

t) And I don’t know why I thought you were hot.

u) I wish you all the best.

v) Fine, marry her, I don’t care.

w) You’re moving… To Australia? So um, that’s why we broke up? HOW COULD YOU LEAVE ME?!

x) I’m going to stalk your Facebook page.

y) I’m going to stalk your Twitter.

z) I’m going to stalk your Instagram.

Okay so I don’t even know what half of those were, but there you go, that’s what my mind produces at ten to eleven. I’ll try my best to write proper posts tomorrow.

xx

Overstepping the mark?

Uurrggghhhh why do boys have to be so confusing?! I mean I bet we girls are too but still.
Urgh
So you know the strictly-friends-guy who I met up with a few days ago? (Ninja, I think I called him. Renamed Deluded.)
Well quite frankly, he’s just getting irritating. Clingy, I suppose. And it’s so effing annoying.
He constantly messages me, snapchats me… And then snapchats me even more when I don’t reply.
If you don’t know what Snapchat is, though I assume a lot of you do, it’s an app where you send people pictures that last for up to 10 seconds.
So anyway, these are almost all throughout the day, every day – you see how this could get annoying? Plus, a lot of the time it’s ones captioned with things like:
a) ‘oops you caught me with my top off!’
b) *whilst wearing a t-shirt* ‘I’m sexier with my top off’
c) ‘guess what?’ ‘I’m sexy!’
d) ‘how do I look?’

Yep, those are actual examples. How am I supposed to respond to that?! Usually I ignore it or am just like ‘right.’ Or something dismissive. He’s really not attractive either. Just clearing that up.
And there’s the messaging. Skype, iMessage… FaceTime… What is this, seriously?! I’ve got to the point where I just ignore him for the majority of the time. I seldom ignore people if they message me, because I’m always happy to talk to people, I’m touched that they want to talk to me. But there’s a line. And he’s just overstepped it. I think skyping me at 2am is a bit excessive. If I make it known that I’m awake and it’s a close friend of mine or someone who I don’t talk to so much, it’d be fine okay, I don’t mind. After all, I’m occasionally awake at that time. However, I had talked to him that day. For nearly the whole day. Must have been something important? HAHAHAHAHAHA no. It was just to tell me that he’d started working out and that he was doing one handed press ups and planking while typing. I get that he wants to look impressive, and don’t we all? But I did not need to know that at 2 in the fucking morning. The next morning he said ‘I’m really starting to see the results of my exercise’ um a) after about half an hour?! I highly doubt it mate, you don’t get abs just because you did 5 press ups. b) what did he want me to say? ‘SHOW ME‘?! Obviously that’s not going to happen! And oh yeah, the next day he was like ‘I’m really keen to show someone the results. Well don’t bloody well show me! Show it to your girlfriend oh yeah, YOUR GIRLFRIEND. Why’s he telling me this?! Guys who are reading this, PLEASE GIVE ME HELP OMG. Because you know the male mind much more than I do so I don’t know, tell me your ideas on why he’s doing this please?!
At first he was fun to talk to, and I had a good time when we met up at the cinema the other day. But now it’s just repetitive and boring and I just want the conversation to end. If he suggest calling, I usually make up an excuse not to, but eventually I run out of them and I don’t want him to feel bad you know? But urgh, limpet alert!
*insert limpet joke here*
On a call, all he does is play a game on his Xbox that I’m not interested in and talk about it, tell me to watch while he kills these guys and then silently plays the game again. When he’s not doing that, he’s talking about superheroes and films I’ve never heard of and have no intention of watching. Don’t get me wrong, superheroes are awesome, Batman and Black Widow especially but seriously?! ALL THE FREAKING TIME?! It’s Ironman this, Captain America that. I don’t caaaaarrrreeee! I haven’t seen many Marvel films or other superhero films, so I don’t know what he’s talking about and he knows that but talks about it anyway. Then he’ll talk about the £600 computer he’s getting, just for gaming. How the keyboard is ‘so amazing’ because it has a wrist rest for when you’re using it a lot and it’s so worth the 80 something pounds extra. And OH MY GOD THERE’S AN ALIEN FACE ON THE SIDE THAT GLOWS DIFFERENT COLOURS HOLY SHIT! *note sarcasm* I mean, I’m sorry if I don’t understand gaming. I’m not a gamer myself, and I couldn’t care less about the keyboard. Maybe the first time. But not the tenth. And if he’s not doing that then he’s trying to play playing guitar. He’s alright, he plays tab mainly, which I’m crap at so I can’t really say anything but he’s not the most amazing player in the world, despite what he thinks. Plus, the tab he mainly does is easy shit man. I’m not dissing his playing okay, because tab is hard to do but he honestly thinks that he’s one of the most incredible guitarists around. Um no. He just likes to show off I suppose. And when you’re proud of something then you do. But the same songs are played every time: Misty Mountains from The Hobbit, the Indiana Jones theme, the James Bond theme. Yeah, they’re good songs but UURRGGHH EVERY TIME. And then he goes on to ‘Everlong’ by Foo Fighters, which is an amazing song and one of my favourites, but he just repeats the same 10 seconds of song. He constantly mentions how his teacher said ‘You’re no beginner’ when he had his first lesson a few weeks ago. WOW. THAT’S BECAUSE HE WASN’T A BEGINNER! He’d been playing for months before that so what did he expect. Bragging much?
I know this has been a massively long rant, but it’s just annoying and confusing and I dot know whether I need to say something in order to avoid hurting his girlfriend? Just what’s going on with the whole trying to impress me thing and everything? It’s just incredibly annoying, you know? What do you think I should do, I need advice here guys! And lads, is this just typical ‘boy’ or is it excessive and weird? I’d really appreciate your advice on this 🙂

Xx

P.s. I wrote this in the car on the way to visit my grandparents and I can’t be bothered to redraft it so there was today’s shitty post.

P.p.s And I’m back now so I can continue with writing shit. Yay.

30 Day Challenge – Day 6 – 10

1. Yes, I know I missed Day 6 yesterday, I ended up being at a sleepover which was a spontaneous decision so sorry not sorry , I’m catching up now.

2. I’m going away to see mes grandparents until Friday so I won’t have wifi (shock horror) so I’m going to do all those days up to then now.

3. Hey, how’re you doing.

Here we goooooo!

Day 6 – The person you like and why you like them.

Oh dear.

If you’ve been following me for a while, then you’ll probably know who this is.

Hmmm… I think it’s time for a list.

1. He’s LSFSBoaG. (For those of you who don’t know, that stands for Le Sexy F*cking Stupid Bastard of a Garcon)

2. No I can’t be bothered to do the little French flicky thing on the C.

3. He was introduced to me by a mutual friend in December.

4. It’s really stupid and pointless liking him.

5. I like him because of his mysterious personality, his ability to play guitar and the fact that he actually talks to me.

6. I don’t even know if I like him any more.

7. Not in that way anyway.

8. But we’re friends.

9. So I guess that’s better than nothing.

10. Besides, he’s moving.

Um…

*cough*

Day 7 – Your opinion on cheating on people.

No.

Just no. If you don’t want to be with someone any more, just tell them. I get that it’s hard and all and you might not want to ‘hurt’ them, but seriously dude, you’re going to hurt them more by cheating. And if you’re cheating because you can’t decide who to be with, well, as Johnny Depp once said,

If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one, because if you really loved the first one, you wouldn’t have fallen for the second.

 

So don’t be an asshole. 🙂

Day 8 – Something you’re currently worrying about.

I’m a worrying kind of a person. I wish I wasn’t but there we go.

Mmmmm… I actually can’t think of much right now, but mainly college and why EBBF has added me on snapchat… Should be interesting…

Day 9 – Your last kiss

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHHAHAAHHHAHAHAAQUACKHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

HAHHAHAHAHASNORTHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHCHOKINGHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAFALLSONFLOORHAHHAA.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAA- Okay that’s enough.

That’s a funny one.

I can’t answer that.

Because I haven’t actually kissed anyone.

HAHAHAHHA. Now isn’t that funny.

Day 10 – Your views on drugs and alcohol

Well. Alcohol – I think it’s fine in proportion. I don’t like how it can affect people, but it’s not something that I’m against. I’ll most likely drink in the future so yep, fine by me as long as it’s not excessive amounts.

Drugs? Nope. I get why people do certain ones, smoking weed or whatever but I wouldn’t, personally, and I wouldn’t advice anyone else to. But it’s their life and they choose what to do with it.

And there we go, that was kind of crap, but I was doing random sentences over 2 hours so my apologies.

Have an awesome week, and I will return on Friday!

xx

Things I love about summer.

Personally, I adore summer. It’s just got a ‘feel good’ vibe to it, if you get what I mean. AND IT’S WARM. (rarely in England but there we go, we’ve just had a so-called ‘heat wave’ so we should be thankful.) 😀 As with every season, summer has it bad features: the over-powering heat, the fact that we can never keep cool in the heat seeing as no one has air conditioning, so you are doomed to lie on your floor without moving for days on end… unless you spend your day in Tesco by the refrigerators. Not a bad idea, actually… There’s ice cream… …Yup… That’s my summer sorted. And then there’s the mosquitos. Argh. Annoying little things they are. Why do they even exist? *danisnotonfire voice* WHAT IS THE POINT OF THEIR EXISTAAANNNCCEEE?

But all that aside, it’s still one of my favourite seasons. And I’m going to write a list. Because lists are cool.

1. Sun – The really obvious one. But hey, it’s something that the majority of us look forward to, especially after long winters. Sun kind of just makes everything a bit better. Even if you’re stuck in school doing your most hated classes, it’s just a little better when the sun’s shining, right?

2. Warm weather – This is also really obvious and links in with the previous one. Still, it’s something we all like, come on. And we don’t get much of it here in England, so there.

3. Summer breaks and holidaaaayyys! And no school! – It’s just nice to be away for a while somewhere nice, even if, like me, you just go somewhere a few hours away (I’m trying my best to go abroad next year though… Portugal looks likely, yeeeessss) Plus it gives you a chance to stalk dem fit guys and girls.

…I am such a creeper.

4. Pimms – WHO DOES NOT LIKE PIMMS?! Probably a lot of people, stop making judgements. It’s one drink that is really summery and fruity and nice that only really appears in this season, so yep.

5. Ice cream – I know you can get this all year round, but you can’t beat ice cream when it’s actually hot.

6. Tanning – Yaaaaaaaaay, getting the ‘golden glow’. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA I don’t tan.

7. Meeting up with friends – Any day, any time really. Whenever you feel like it without having to worry about homework or school the next day or whatever. Though my friends are all on holiday right now, so I am a loner. Maaaa.

8. Staying outside for ages – It doesn’t get cold or dark for ageeeees, so you can stay out until midnight. not quite

9. BBQs – Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom. FOOD. Food is good. (Hint: To you UK people, the chilli beef kebabs from a supermarket that rhymes with… Lainsbury’s are really nice.)

10. Fruit – Finally all the nice fruit is available, by that I mean stuff like strawberries and raspberries and shit. Yes, I know you can get them all year round, but in summer you get British ones and local ones and they’re nice okay.

11. Lie ins – Because you’re not at school, you can stay in bed for the entire day, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! Though I’m looking after my friend’s chickens and cat again while she’s away so this week I can’t do that. Meh. But I get paid so you know, the early (10 am) mornings are worth it.

12. Dresses and skirts and shorts and florals and all that nice shit – Yes. Summer fashion. I LUFF IT.

13. Lemonade – This just deserves a section of its own in my opinion, okay, because I like lemonade and yeah. When it’s nice and chilled and you can just sip it and stuff, like yup. Yep yep yeppedy yep. *skips down street with glass of lemonade* When I visited York last week, there were these people selling fresh lemonade, which consisted only of freshly squeezed lemons and cold water. And boy, it was good. If you ever go to York this summer, get some. Because it’s refreshing. Nom nom nom.

And so concludes my list. I want a list of things to do this summer, just really random things, so PLEASE COMMENT IDEAS BELOW I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVEEEERRR! Whatever crazy, or not-so-crazy ideas you have, please let me know, I’d really appreciate it, if you guys actually suggest stuff I’ll make a post about it and it’ll be fun and let’s all do challenges and stuff because it’s summer and we have six weeks off here (five now) so JUST DO IT. PLUZ.

Love you all.

xx

AND YES I HAVE A NEW THEME AHAHA SUMMERY.

I really need to sort out these categories.

The Hobbit and other things.

I went to see The Hobbit – An Unexpected Journey today! After hearing loads of really good reviews and some not so good reviews, I decided to finally go and see it. And in my opinion, it was really good. Judge me. Martin Freeman made an amazing hobbit, he fitted the character perfectly. Plus, I now want to live in a hobbit hole in a hill.
It would have been better if:
a) we weren’t stuck on one of the front rows
b) we didn’t have annoying kids behind us kicking our seats every 2 minutes
c) we didn’t have to breathe in the horrible, overpowering smell of… weird popcorn mixed with chocolate. Not as nice as you’d think.
d) I didn’t have someone taking up the arm rests.

But hey, it was a good film. I need to watch Lord of the Rings now…

10 day challenge – Seven fears/phobias – day 4

1. Clowns. Not all clowns. Just lots of them.
2. Spiders. Any bigger than this: and I scream and run. I never used to be like this, in fact I used to love spiders but now I just find them creepy and horrible.
3. Creepy cars. By this, I mean cars who suddenly start up when you walk past… cars who follow you… yeah… my sister and I have had a few experiences of this…
4. Men walking alone in the dark. Is an explanation needed?
5. Burglaries, etc.
6. Illness.
7. Getting hurt. In an emotional sense. I’ll do a post on this at some point.

Hope you’ve all had a good day, see you tomorrow guys 🙂 xx