Long story short, I get pissed off. A lot. Very quickly and very easily. And by almost anything.
My mood can change in a second. I can be happy, bubbly and cheerful and then something would happen and BAM. I’m now transformed into a moody bitch.
It’s not something I’m proud of and I’m constantly being told that I need to control my temper, I need to calm down, I need to stop getting wound up so easily… etc etc etc. I realise this and I try. I really do, but nothing works. I guess I’ll grow out of it, but for now, I just have to try to keep calm.
…Well that would be a hell of a lot easier of I didn’t have people moaning at me all the time, or being insensitive little twats.
A lot of the time, I’d come home from school, all happy, and then someone totally ruins everything by yelling at me. Yay. This happens a lot.
Don’t get me wrong, I love my family. But over the past year, my parents have become further and further away… Mum doesn’t tell us anything (so how are we, my sister and I, supposed to feel comfortable talking to her about stuff) like she didn’t tell us that one of my grandparents had cancer, that my dad was on anti-depressants because a situation at his work was so bad, etc etc. Those are just some of the things she has kept from us. We found out by accident… overhearing phone conversations, seeing open emails. Another thing that gets me seriously pissed off is that she tells her friends everything about us. Stuff they shouldn’t know; personal things. Thanks mother. Also, shouldn’t mothers be supportive? Shouldn’t they be encouraging and enthusiastic? Ha. Mines not. She is constantly being negative and this affects my sister (who is a few years older than me and doing her A-Levels) more than me. Plus, she is hardly understanding. We can’t tell her anything. In a way, this has brought my sister and I closer together because she is the one I talk to if I need help.
Then comes my ‘friends’. In fact, I’m not even going to start on that.
So this year, I’m going to try and not get so annoyed at everything and hopefully that will make me a nicer person.
Lastly, thanks so much for all the support you guys gave on my previous post and also thanks for telling me about your own experiences (thanks you two). I’ll be posting again today, but I thought I should finish this post as it has been sitting as a draft for days. I have been at my grandparents the past few days without wifi so that’s why I haven’t been posting.
But for now, have an amazing new year everyone!